" I always have to be there for others. I always have to be somewhat level headed. I always have to listen to others and their issues and help in the process of calming them down..." and bla bla bla
I've felt like that with friends, family, coworkers, classmates, and anyone else I come in contact with. Then I thought to myself..
"Who's going to to do that for me?! Why do I get stuck with other people's issues? When am I going to be comforted?"
Then I ask God to help me exercise peace, grasp wisdom, speak in love, and learn to rest. I trust Him and know He takes care of me. THEN I thought...
"Wow Anais, You're such a silly goose"
Here I am saying, I have a lot going on and that i'm tired. I'm complaining about helping others and whining about no one helping me; what a lie! What a sad twisted version of the truth. Yes, I'm there for people. Yes, I listen to their issues. Yes, I have things I have to deal with. But you know what I just realized? The way I deal with my issues is by getting my eyes off of myself, and loving on someone else.
I actually like being there for people. I love that people trust me and want to share their hearts with me. I thought for a second that there must be something wrong with me if people always want to come to me, but it is the total opposite! People know I love them and know that I want joy in their lives. They know that I want to be there for them and that maybe in the midst of it all, I can make them laugh. They know that I have issues too, and maybe that comforts them and we can pray for each other's issues. & what in the world was I thinking...
Basically, I need to stop being selfish and I definitely have friends and family that love me and that are there for me. And above all else, I have a God that loves me unconditionally and will never leave me nor forsake me: NEVER EVER EVER leave me and will FOREVER love me.
I'm so thankful for my kick butt family and friends; and especially, for God's love for me.
